i'm still here and i'm not going newhere


Friday, November 22, 2002
music..itz grrrrrrrrreat! haha..yeah kame back from Willy's gig thing like an hour ago...lets see how that whole thing started..well i got dropped off at Roselle's pad..played her guitar while i was jus chillin in her living room and talking to Joyce...yeah haha she answers the phone phunny and she knows it too kuz we all mess w/ her about it she sayz "hello" like a white gurl haha yeah..hmm..then Willy kame down and put on a cd and it was Brian Setzer...krazy guitarist...he's phreakin' dope rockabilly swing styley..yeah gotta start learnin that stuff....yeah so we left and went to pick up Nodel..picked him up..then we went to pik up D..picked him up then we went onward to LBCC..yeah we got there all early it was only 6 and the thing didn't start till at 7..so we jus walked around looking for food kuz they were hungry..and the more we walked the more i got hungry and there were no ATM machines so Roselle kouldn't get nething kuz she no tengo dinero..yeah so after we practically walked around the whole kampus she was like "duude lets jus go walk to the stores over there one of 'em has to have an ATM machine" soo thatz what we did...and like halfway we were like "how kome we jus didn't take the kar?" hahaha oh well...yeah so we passed a subway but it was like "umm no" and then we kept on walking and we saw the jackindabox so we went there..guess what i ordered..really guess...well if u don't know i got the usuall two chicken sandwiches w/ tomatoes..kuz u know they don't put it in unless u axe for it....yeah so i was all trying to finish one of 'em fast kuz we were gonna eat while walkin' back but i didn't finish..so like the whole time we were walkin' back like only around 10 min. i was all eating haha..well we were all eating and walking and talking haha..yeah..then we got there..went in...saw them setting up...we listened/watched Willy's first set...like jazzy/swing yeah u know...the first song was Beyond The Sea..u know the one that goes like ...some where beyond the sea, she's there waiting for me, my lover stands on golden sands, and straight to her arms will i go sailing....yeah that song... then other familliar swing songs..yeah i felt like dancing haha...but i kouldn't kuz u know itz jus a show type thing..so i jus u know bobbed my head w/ the flow of themusic u know the deal..and it was weird too kuz like after every solo or whateverz..it jus wasn't Willy on guitar all byhimself..it was like two other guitarist....two pianists...a drummer..a bass...yeah it was pretty dope....yeah well after every solo they would klap and i was all thinking to myself "damn this is the first koncert performance where no ones skreaming out peoples names or whateverz haha itz all civilized" yeah...then after his "band" or group whatever u wanna kall it played..another kame out...and theyr ocked out ....the lead guitarists guitar was kinda loud..kept me awake haha..i was gettin' tired and sleepy..and the rythm had a cry baby wah pedal...so yeah that made it interesting...then after them Willy kame out again..and did some more jazzy swing stuff..yeah it was kool...then after his last set we walked out..and we found him and told him he did good and stuff..and talked and he went lookin' for one of his friends that kame to watch..and then D and i followed..and haha it was kinda phunny kuz i bet the guy that was w/ Willy's friend was thinking that we're all really weird hahaha...well guess what we are!..no big surprize there...yeah then we left...they dropped me off...yeah and an hour passed by and now i'm here..yeah in the middle of writing this another thought kame to mind and i started writing it down..and guess what another "thought stuff" processed itself into being...and so here it is....this one is really whack..all of the more positive happy stuff is better but i dunno i had thoughts and i needed to put them down somehow so here they are..read it...try to enjoy..mayb u'll learn something...adios..happy dayz!..........................

y doesn't ne one like me.
seriously there must b something wrong w/ me.
i know there is so just tell me.
what is it honestly,
just tell me already.
am i too weird, do i talk to much,
or is it that i just don't talk enough.
is it kuz im' not a jock,
or simply itz kuz i live under a rock.
do i play too much guitar,
even tho i haven't really learned much, or gotten that far.
is it my stupid poems that don't make ne sense,
or is it kuz i'm just one big mess.
kould it be that i kan't simply xplain,
how all these feelings are driving me insane.
what do i have to do to make u understand,
was the poem enough of was it really that bad.
please tell me something anything kuz it doesn't seem like i'm getting to u,
is cupid needed to pierce an arrow through u.
to ure heart and ure brain,
to help u better understand y i'm goin insane.
please tell me y none of this makes sense,
but i'm sorry kuz i didn't want to make a mess.
i know u like how things were b4,
but honestly think to ureself therez more in store.
you know i'll treat you as a Queen, a Princess of shimmering light,
nothing kan compare to Your beauty day or night.
i know the feelings are all there,
but they need to kome ouat and to b shared.
i guess i'll jus sit here and wait,
until you tell me All and y u made me wait.

...i'm waiting but i'm kool w/ it...kuz remember u said u'll proally take forever..and i said...if forever it is then forever i'll wait...




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