yeah i jus got back from formal like 3o min. or so and i'm not even tired this time..damn krazy huh...i got stamina oh yeah! haha..yeah ok i'll start off w/ the beginning of the day..yeah i was still kinda pissed...still kinda amm...damn..yeah choir practice...sing at mass...go out at fantastic burger..me..Neil..Dad..Kuya Elmer..Tita Remy..yeah then go to flynn center at joez kuz St. Anthony elementary skools A girlz bball team is in the finalz..so i jus slept in the kar...then went to the flower shop and picked up the corsage..ordered a boutineer...yeah...then went home...did laundry..play guitar..stretched...yeah...then Kuya Elmer and Tita Remy kame over..then we ordered pizza..got gass..picked it up...picked up boutineer...went home..ate pizza....ok side note...damn i alwayz phreakin' eat pizza on the night of formal..ever since phreakin' sophomre year i guess itz either tradition or a kurze or some sortz..but yeah i was sorta gettin' sick when i was lookin' at it kuz i was thinking of how i ALWAYS phreakin' eat pizza on formal nights..blah yeah so ok i jus ate it...then i got ready...then Nodel and Mary or (Moira hahahaha inside joke) kame over...yeah two love birds hahahaha well not yet...we jus have to let things play out for those two..yeah so then Nodel's like "oh shit do we need the bid things?" and i'm like "yeah u might need 'em to get in jus in kase" and he's like "i left it in my kar and i left my ring at my house too" so we went to his pad but the gate wouldn't open so he jus ran home and got it and kame back..then we went down this phun hill in signalhill..yeah i'lll take u there sometime if ure KOOL enough...yeah then we went to formal..yeah about the boutineer itz kool...i told her to not worry about it..kuz aktually i wasn't supposed to get a corsage for her either kuz like well Kymee told her rents that she's going stag well she aktually went "stag" hahaha yeah so her friend Christina(the gurl i went w/) yeah she's supposed to go "stag" as well..so yeah i jus bought the boutineer and i told her to not worry about it kuz itz only like 6 buckx..no biggie..yeah what else...oh yeah ok i get there..and we're all trying to look for the phreakin' place so we drove around the neighborhood like 5 times and it was phreakin' right there nex to the sphagetti faktory...RIGHT there i jus never noticed it..yeah we shoulda jus followed ala those limoz..damn bosco/joez rich kids w/ there damn limoz hahaha..yeah so i get tehre and i see Bob so i'm chillin' w/ him and he turnz around and see's Kymee's vehicle and i'm like "oh damn we better go walk that way" and so we made it look like we were going to our karz..slick huh hahaha..and then when the kost was klear we went back and i was lookin' for Kymee and iwasn't shure if it was her or not kuz i have bad eyesight yeah...and then i see her and i see her friend and i say in my head "hey she looks jus like in the pikture...kool" hahaha yeah..so i say hi and stuff..and yeah...there wasn't really much to talk about..i dunno i was kinda sorta still whateverz..but yeah i tried tho...yeah it was phun overall..it was a good time...oh if ure reading this..thankx for a phun evening..yeah ok back to the story..so yeah we were in the wrong line but Jason told me which line to go in High Five** yeah then we go in..take pickx..yada yada..go around find a table ..empty out my pockets..haha yeahh i emptied out my pockets...haha yeah then went to dance and stuff....yeah damn i haven't phreaked a gurl in a while b4 tonight haha damn yeah i still got it tho..haha yeah..i dunno i was SLIGHTLY dissapointed w/ the music..i dunno i didn't hear all the songs i wanted to u know..yeah but over all the music was good and yeah my date knew how to dance on beat so it waskool..yeah they played alota ummm salsa esque music..yeah more than xpected..and alota weird stuff..but good thing they played that stuff to make more room for the good stuff yeah...hmm yeah it was going great for awhile and stuff..yeah but my date made me say hi to Aizirk..even tho i told Annie on umm friday or was it saturday night that i'm not gonna say "hi" to her and ima let her say "hi" to me...yeah but i saw her tho when i walked up into that one room and i knew she saw me thatz y she left in a hurry..yeah i know ure avoiding me dont' even try to b slick or nething about it kuz ure not...yeah...so i jus waved hi and yeah...no hug or nething dang...yeah i dunno i still get the vibe that she doesn't wanna talk to me or nething but blah..so yeah if nething was kaka about tonight it was that...damn i tried to get my mind offa it and stuff but i kouldn't dang....but i kept my temper down...and i jus danced it off...yeah...hmm i dunno....the whole blind date thing isn't all that bad..u jus gotta make the most of it i suppose..yeah damn phreakin' Dominic jus showin' up outa no where and krap damn he seemed like he was slightly drunk or really HIGH ofa the MUSIc or something i dunno..haven't seen him like that in a while haha proally last dance..but yeah thankx Bro for trying to cheer me up and stuff..yeah hmm what else what else hmmmmmmm...yeah ok so we were in the "gaming" room hahaha yeah and i saw Aizirk there and i pointed her out and Christina was liek "go say hi to her" and i'm liek "what for i dont' wanna say hi to her if she doesn't even wanna talk to me" but yeah mike went away so i had to sieze the chance at least to try and i said "hey Sha" and she sorta looked but i dunnno i guess she was too buzy koncentrating on her lil GAME...again....yeah oh well i tried damnit...blah phreakin' A y do i always try and try and try and i get nothing blah i don't kare blah blah...yeah so i wasli ke whateverz lets go dance..yeah then yeah it was phun...i forgot how to salsa dance tho..damn i gotta relearn that stuff b4 prom haha..yeah and they DIDN'T PLAY NE SWING!!!!!! blah kaka heads...damn oh well at prom they BETTER phreakin' A..iw as ready too...yeah hmm what else..i dunno yeah hmmmm....yeah only sucky thing is that my date had to leave early at like 1130 kuz yeah u know the whole thing about them going "stag" hahah yeah...so yeah kinda sucked it was all weird walking around w/ no date and everyone is all in a happy group or w/ their date all phreakin' happy and krap..and i'm jus walkin' around and people lookat me and go like "where's ure date" and i go "oh i'm dateless right now she had to leave early" and yeah it kinda sucked...yeah damn i felt hella awkward when i was chillen w/ like Sy/Bobby Randy/Michelle and Kristine/that guy haha i dunno his name hahaha yeah kuz they were all paired up all luvy duby krap and i'm like al thinking "krap i hate this krap haha sh*T blah" yeah i didn't make ne sense kuz i was sorta bumbed out a bit and i was trying to keep my self from being too bumbed out but yeah at least they talked to me well mostly Randy/Michelle yeah they're kool....yeah i told them how nice guyz finish last and that itz jus suposed to happend that i always get "dumped" by a gurl and how that i was all alone at the end of the dance when everyone was all happy w/ their dates...and yeah thatz jus how things r supposed to b for me kuz later in life everything will get better...kuz no good kan kome w/out bad happening first....yeah so yeah they were nice enough to keep my kompany until like the slow song was playing and i kept on telling Randy/Michelle to go and have phun and that if he and her are happy and they're happy then i'll b happy kuz they're happy kuz i guess they knew i was kinda bumbed out kuz i told them what went down on friday and blah how it hella bumbed me out...yeah and like yeah so after my date left and i got all my krap and i was gonna walk back into the main dance floor to see if i kould go snag a dancing partner for like 3o min. hahaha i saw Aizirk there and i dunno i kouldn't stand it so i jus turned around and went back to Randy/Michelle..yeah it like one of those thingz where u have hella mixed emotions..urelike damn i wanna steal her away..damn i'm pissed off at her for what she did to me and how kould she have done that to me..and like damn i'm phreakin' whack kuz i'm always gettin' dumped on yeah and other emotions all rolled up into one kuz i dunno i wasn't i dunno it was different ok...ok here's my formal history

sophmore year bosco formal - 1st one didn't know a damn thing..barely talked
junior year poly formal - 2nd one it was like nothing jus had phun and danced w/ more than one gurl
junior year boso formal queen mary - most phun...everything was almost perfect...special spark was there...
senior year bosco formal - "blind date" had phun...but seeing the gurl there kinda bumbed me out and the fact that it ended w/ me being alone..

so yeah i guess u kould say i've kovered almost all the basis of the whole formal xperiences...fromnot knowing or what to do or to say...to itz nothing been there done that..to this gurl is like "whoa" and i'm hella feeling this gurl..to "blind date" and being alone at the end of the dance..yeah...i guess things r supposed to happen to make u stronger and to help u bkome better at what ever it is that ure doing...so yeah i've had my formal highs and lows all thatz left is prom..and i dunno i keep on going back and forth on whether to go or not to go that is still the question i dunno....i mean i wanna go and all..but i only wanna go if everything goes MY way kuz so far the klosest where everythings gone MY way was last yearz bosco formal....which still is the most phunnest formal out of 'em all..yeah i dunno i had the one person who i really wanted to go w/ to prom but i dunno right now things r hella shaking and i sorta need to iron things out...and i dunno i still wanna go w/ her deep down inside..but only if she tells me the gosh darn truth..u have to b real w/ me...avoiding me doesn't solve ure problems or fix problems for that matter...i would of preffered u jus telling me straight out like "Noel what u do is really sweet and all and i like it all but ure really suffocating me w/ everything and i sorta want u to kalm down and back off" i mean something to that affect would of been suffice i don't need a whole story or xplanation well it would b nice tho...but avoiding me..i mean AVOIDING ME..that doesn't solve NETHING..that jus makes things WORSE missy..i'm sorry but thatz jus the truth...and i don't want to b the one again to start things going again..kuz i don't wanna get ure attention or to get ure friendship back if u really don't want it ne more....ure reallly konfusing at times but thatz a part of y i like u but the fact that ure so konfusing and it leads to hurting people...even me...thatz not kool....i dunno jus tell m e the damn truth straight up..spare me the long over hall of pain/suffering/confusion/mental and emotional anguish...jus tell me what i need to know..please..i'm asking u nicely.....but unfortunetly u and ure buzy schedule u'll never get around to reading this..and plus itz tooooooooooooo long for u....kuz i write to much and u only like things to b all short and kompact and yada yada....ok i'm finally getting sleepy....sigh....y do u do this to ureself....ure not jus hurting ureself ure hurting those who kare about u most around u....everyone..smile when u see me ok?..please?...mayb it'll brighten my day..who knows....yes and try to live happy dayz...
posted by Leon at 1:44 AM