yeah u kan kall february the singles awareness month..i guess thatz what i'll b kalling it from now on...yeah i've cooled off now...good thing i saw that episode of the Simpsons and Fastlane but the simpsons related more to me than fastlane..yeah it was about valentines day..wupdedoo what else..yeah well and how Apu or Abu however u spell that guyz name was going all out for his wife and how the rest of the guyz in springfield were pissed off kuz he was makin' them look hella bad...yeahh that'll give u some food for thought..yeah i like what what kuzzin Elaine put on her xanga...all it sayz is "i'm feelin:mad sad confused...i jus wanna be happy!" i'm feeling ya kuzz...u kould say i'm on the same page as u on that one...u know i dunno ..well u don't know kuz of kourse u wouldn't know kuz u don't know what i'm thinking...but blah damn..what the hell...all u had to do was listen..........LISTENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.....thatz all i asked for u know.....and itz messed up u avoided me and u left and everything..thatz the most skandalous thing u ever did to me...and that hella pissed me off and it still does..how would u like it if u planned something all nice and special for someone and thenu were all waiting for a long time and then right when that person was about to go outside that person jus avoids u and makes a quick get away...yeah i bet u'd hate it ..i know u would....but kome to think of it it wouldn't really matter much to u neway......kuz ure like that.....i know i always over do it..i'm sorry ok....damn is it my fault that i wanna do something nice for u ...is it my fault that i think that u desrve alot more than jus the norm...is it my fault?....damn.......y does it feel that the more i do the more i push u away....i mean what is it?....r u jus not used to all of this?...or is it that u would rather have no part in ne of it.....what do u want? tell me...do u want a dipsh*t jerk who'll forget everything u say and never try to do lil things to make u smile or to do special things on special occations or who always thinks of u and tries to think of something to do for u ...yeah is that what u want?...or is it ure jus so used to kaka guyz who treat u all nice in the beginning and then tell u later on "i'm getting bored w/ u? is that what u want?...damn is this what i get?....damn phreakin' A........u know therez alota gurlz who envy u....who wish that they got the attention u get from me.....who wish their bf's would always write them poems and all that stuff....and play the guitar to them or even jus the thought of singing to them would make them happy...gurlz who wish their bfs would stop treatin' them like sh*t....gurlz who wish they finally had a nice guy a loyal guy a guy who always tries to understand....what is it? kuz i really don't know...everytime i try to figure it out i'm always phreakin' off...damn...i missed phreakin' Footloose rehersal to sing/play for u today...but unfortunately u were too buzy in ure lil puzzle game to even jus go outside for like a min. or two...it wouldn't of been ne more jus to here me or at least u kould of said "hi" damn..i guess the puzzle game is worth more then me......i never thought that a phreakin' game would kome b4 me...ig ues i was wrong....yeah ure not all to blame..i kould of went in there and said "hi" u know..i kould of jus sang to u in there infront of all those gurlz..but i didn't want it to b in front of all those gurlz....knowing u..and how u dont' really like all that public sign of affection stuff....u wouldn't wanna b embarassed or something ......u wouldn't want a whole bunch of peopel to know or to find out....thatz y i waited outside....yeah i know i shouldn't of sent other people to do my work...i'll give u that...but u didn't have to totally blow me off...i know u saw me...i saw u opening the mpb door and when u saw that i saw u u klosed it shut and then u disappeared...damn....we even went over to the flynn to check if u retreated over there.....thatz messed up....u didn't have to ignore me like that.....what did i do to deserve that.....i'm always trying hard to b super nice to u and to listen to everything u say....always thinking of something to do for u to make u smile or to brighten ure day........and this is how i'm repayed....being ignored...being avoided...thatz great...oh well...itz jus my luck now isn't it....i guess nice guyz really do always finish last....what do u want a phreakin' kakahead jerk who's gonna treat u like krap....damn what the hells wrong w/ me..tell me i really wanna know...kuz everytime i try to figure it out i'm always wrong...and since ure usually pointing stuff out thatz wrong or 'wrong' w/ me u might as well tell me what it really is kuz i really wanna know....damn all u had to do was go outside..sit down...listen for like two minutes..smile say a lil "thank you" and that was it...but u didn't do ne of that....i dunno ne more...everytime i do something i get nothing in return..i mean i know ure not supposed to do stuff to get things in return but hey everythings a give and take..and u jus kan't always have someone konstantly giving and one always recieving....blah my head hurts..and my heart does also...but that doesn't matter kuz no one kares..no one does...they're all jus lying...spare me the long over due pain and jus tell me straight out in the first place...damn...i know i didn't make ne sense w/ alla the stuff i jus said...but i needed to get krap outa my mind..damn i kome home all fired up and krap and all pissed off and i'm all trying to surpress it so i won't show it to my rents or to my lil bro....yeah i know they're not having allthat great a day either...my dad got phreakin' layed off...isn't that great...sigh....i guess the saying "good things kome to good people" doesn't always apply....i dont' kare ne more.....whenever i kare nothing komes of it..i jus keep on getting more hurt....and a heart kan only take so much beating......all u had to do was listen.........thatz all u had to do.......sigh...well i guess u had phun w/ ure lil puzzle thingimajig....=/.........i honestly don't feel like talking to u right now.....if u have something to say it better b konstructive..kuz lately it seems that i've been doing the talking...i dunno mayb itz ure buzy or ure talking to sooooo many people i dunno but thatz what i'mg etting...yeah ...."sorries" don't really kount ne more...u kan only say "i'm sorry"so many times it loses itz meaning....aktions to speak louder than words...and the aktions that u made or didn't make today spoke volumes..........blah..........happydayz...HA! yeah right...
posted by Leon at 9:28 PM