hmmMMMmm...i dunno if i should really b bloggin' right now...i mean kuz i don't know if it'll all kome out right..kuz therez so much stuff to say and to think...but i don't want it to kome out all hella wrong and yeah..but i dunno i need to get stuff out...i dunno what else to do....i kan't xactly write right right now....i need the night tmie for that...hehe..'night time'...thatz a phunny thought...but yeah..u wouldn't knowunless u knew...

was it the night that was talking...
or was it really you...
did u mean what you say....
or was it the night talking again....
i know and i don't....
what hurts and what it feels...
i dunno what to say....
i was too skared to say what i really wanted to say....
i didn't want to say nething i would regret....
so i stayed quiet....
was it the night that stayed quiet or was it really me....
i've never stayed so silent so still....
i sat there and i didn't want to think....
kuz if i thought then i would feel....
and if i felt then i would feel pain.....
but no matter what i thought it was there.....
it wouldn't go away...
not right away....
was it the night that hurt or did it really hurt....
i warned u and warned u again....
i didn't want to say it i didn't want to feel it.....
but u asked for it so i gave it....
i gave u it all even if i didn't know how to say it....
i told u the truth and i know that it must of hurt.....
kuz it hurt me it hurt me.....
was it the night that hurt or did i really feel it.....
i didn't want u to kry....
i didn't mean to make u kry....
the more u kried the more i felt....
i felt like i must of brought u pain to put u through tearz....
i'm sorry if i made u kry.....
was it the night that kried or did we really kry...
u know that i don't usually let ne one hear...
how much pain i feel especially when i feel it....
but i had to let u know....
i kan't xplain it and y i had to but i had too....
but remember when i said...
that if i jump no matter if i go off that kliff...
i'll always make my way back to u...
i don't want to kause u ne pain...
so no matter what i'll make my way back to u.....
was it the night talking no it was really me....
so i sit and think of the momments just passed....
and how i slept and i kouldn't stop thinking....
but luckily i got some sleep or else i would of went mad w/ thought....
but itz ok it really is...
we all go a lil insane at times and thatz alright...
but i want u to know that i'm alright....
i'm alright.....
was it the night that was talking or was it really you....
i hope and feel and know that u must of meant all that u said....
u don't say things right away but u think of what u say...
u told me u've never been so hesitant to say something so cliche...
and that u didn't have the right words to say it...
nor the right song to deskribe it...
and i said to take ure time and to say what u mean....
when u find the right words to mean what u say....
and at the right time when ure ready....
u kan have all the time u want....
u know that i'll wait however long it takes....
however long it takes.....
thank you....
i don't know for what...
i don't know why....
but i know that i need to thank you....
so i klose my eyes and try to think...
to think and pikture the look u said u had....
the look that kould deskribe what u really wanted to say...
i wish i saw it i wish i knew it....
mayb then i'd b able to understand it...
but i'm trying and i'm waiting for when it komes...
i hope i'll understand....
was it the night that was talking or was it really us....
i know i said what i meant...
and i don't take back nething i said...
but i hope u feel the same way about what u said...
it would b a shame to find out that...
it was really the night talking and not u...
was it the night that did this or was it really us...


...i jus had to get some thoughts out of my mind out of my heart....i guess no one will b able to figure out what the helli'm talking about hahaha..but itz all good...itz for them to wonder and for us to know....
posted by Leon at 2:34 PM