i jus had an enlighting konversation....i haven't thought those thoughts in awhile..it was quite refreshing.....who sayz one person kan't help the people around them.....most definitely not me...

trix1087 (11:29:48 PM): hey noel!
me 17 0 3 1 (11:29:52 PM): hola
trix1087 (11:29:57 PM): how goes it
me 17 0 3 1 (11:30:02 PM): i haven't had an '!" mark in a greeting in a while
me 17 0 3 1 (11:30:05 PM): that felt nice
me 17 0 3 1 (11:30:07 PM): ohh i'm ok
trix1087 (11:30:22 PM): haha yeah well im good for cheering up i guess
me 17 0 3 1 (11:30:29 PM): thankx
me 17 0 3 1 (11:30:34 PM): so how r u doing?
trix1087 (11:30:41 PM): yeah...im peachy...getting by
trix1087 (11:30:47 PM): iv been really emotional lately
trix1087 (11:30:55 PM): haha..being a girl is weird sometimes
me 17 0 3 1 (11:31:13 PM): hehe i see
me 17 0 3 1 (11:31:29 PM): well if u need some cheering up i'll try my best
trix1087 (11:31:30 PM): i want to be loved...
trix1087 (11:31:35 PM): doesnt everyone?
trix1087 (11:31:37 PM): oh why thank u
me 17 0 3 1 (11:31:43 PM): ure welcome and umm
me 17 0 3 1 (11:31:46 PM): yeah ig uess u kould say that
me 17 0 3 1 (11:31:56 PM): but rn't u satisfied w/ ure family and good friends?
trix1087 (11:32:06 PM): yeah...but im an only child...i like more
me 17 0 3 1 (11:32:11 PM): hehe i see
trix1087 (11:32:18 PM): haha...yupp
me 17 0 3 1 (11:32:33 PM): hmm i don't really mind not being loved
me 17 0 3 1 (11:32:41 PM): for me itz more of a wanting to b understood
trix1087 (11:32:45 PM): have u ever felt like...u wanted to be with someone...but u could never be with them
trix1087 (11:32:51 PM): oh..yeah that too
me 17 0 3 1 (11:32:58 PM): yeah i know the feeling all too well
me 17 0 3 1 (11:33:07 PM): it komes w/ the territory of being the nice guy
trix1087 (11:33:15 PM): like...no matter what u do...and how good it gets...it jsut stops there
trix1087 (11:33:47 PM): i hate that! i want to be number one to someone...like...i want someone to fall madly in love with me
trix1087 (11:33:49 PM): haha
trix1087 (11:33:58 PM): im crazyy
me 17 0 3 1 (11:34:18 PM): hehehe
me 17 0 3 1 (11:34:24 PM): ure not krazy u jus want what everyone wants
me 17 0 3 1 (11:34:27 PM): itz perfectly normal
trix1087 (11:34:33 PM): i hope so man...
me 17 0 3 1 (11:34:40 PM): but do u want that person to b 'in love' w/ u or do u genuinely want someone to 'love' u ?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:34:44 PM): therez a big difference
trix1087 (11:35:04 PM): i know there is...and i want the in love part
trix1087 (11:35:06 PM): haha
me 17 0 3 1 (11:35:17 PM): i see
trix1087 (11:35:33 PM): wait...is being in love a mutual thing?
trix1087 (11:35:42 PM): like two to tango...or can u be in love individually
me 17 0 3 1 (11:35:52 PM): u kan individually but it hurts
trix1087 (11:35:55 PM): like without receiving
trix1087 (11:36:00 PM): ohhh man...
trix1087 (11:36:06 PM): hmm well id otn want that
trix1087 (11:36:16 PM): i guess im sorta stuck...do u know that feeling
trix1087 (11:36:25 PM): like u wanna move on...but there is no one else
trix1087 (11:36:30 PM): to move on to...
trix1087 (11:36:46 PM): so ur focus is still on same ol' same ol' person
me 17 0 3 1 (11:36:46 PM): i see
me 17 0 3 1 (11:36:50 PM): i see
me 17 0 3 1 (11:36:55 PM): thatz never really happend to me b4
trix1087 (11:37:13 PM): yeah...i know...i go through the weirdest things
me 17 0 3 1 (11:37:25 PM): i see
trix1087 (11:37:26 PM): maybe thinking too much is bad
trix1087 (11:37:33 PM): i wish i could not care at all
trix1087 (11:37:39 PM): like have no emotions...
trix1087 (11:37:44 PM): and do whatever i want
me 17 0 3 1 (11:37:49 PM): that thoughts krossed my mind a kouple times
trix1087 (11:37:51 PM): but people get hurt...
me 17 0 3 1 (11:37:52 PM): but it does no good
me 17 0 3 1 (11:37:56 PM): of kourse people get hurt
trix1087 (11:37:56 PM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:37:59 PM): itz the fact of life
me 17 0 3 1 (11:38:04 PM): but u kan kontrol it
me 17 0 3 1 (11:38:11 PM): if u really kare about someone u won't hurt them
trix1087 (11:38:12 PM): yeah i agree
trix1087 (11:38:27 PM): yeah
trix1087 (11:38:29 PM): i guess
me 17 0 3 1 (11:38:32 PM): no matter what it is u really want..and u know that ure gonna really hurt someone...don't hurt them
me 17 0 3 1 (11:38:35 PM): kuz to me life is karma
me 17 0 3 1 (11:38:43 PM): everyone gets their just desserts..sooner or later
trix1087 (11:38:48 PM): really? what goes around comes around eh?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:38:58 PM): itz gonna hit them..and when it hits them it'll knock the mother phreakin' sh*t out of 'em
me 17 0 3 1 (11:39:14 PM): and another personal piece of advice from me...dont' mess w/ people w/ good karma
trix1087 (11:39:23 PM): what does that mean?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:39:23 PM): u'll get hurt soo much more worse then what u do to that person
me 17 0 3 1 (11:39:36 PM): good karma...people who always try to do the right hting...good hearted people
trix1087 (11:39:43 PM): okay..i know that
trix1087 (11:39:56 PM): but like ur saying not fuck up stuff with those kinna ppl?
trix1087 (11:40:09 PM): cuz it's double the consequence?
trix1087 (11:40:14 PM): how is that so?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:40:15 PM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:40:19 PM): i dunno how to xplain it
me 17 0 3 1 (11:40:24 PM): but to me it makes perfect sense
trix1087 (11:40:32 PM): ohhh i see
me 17 0 3 1 (11:40:40 PM): kuz number one over time these good people have akumulated so much good karma that it would b suicide to mess w/ them
trix1087 (11:40:56 PM): hahah i see
me 17 0 3 1 (11:41:02 PM): kuz itz only a matter of time for the person thatz not all that good to b hit really bad
trix1087 (11:41:03 PM): well quite the philosophy
me 17 0 3 1 (11:41:07 PM): well not hit but hurt
me 17 0 3 1 (11:41:10 PM): yeah
trix1087 (11:41:19 PM): yeah...i see
me 17 0 3 1 (11:41:21 PM): there goes some food for thought
trix1087 (11:41:31 PM): yeh...write a book
me 17 0 3 1 (11:41:44 PM): haha i've heard that too many times
me 17 0 3 1 (11:41:53 PM): mayb when i'm old and full of wisdom
trix1087 (11:41:53 PM): have u read catcher in the rye?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:41:58 PM): yup itz one of my favorite books
trix1087 (11:42:00 PM): haha yeah!
trix1087 (11:42:03 PM): me too!
me 17 0 3 1 (11:42:05 PM): yeah
trix1087 (11:42:05 PM): i loved it!
me 17 0 3 1 (11:42:10 PM): it fits in ure back pocket too
trix1087 (11:42:11 PM): i love the character
me 17 0 3 1 (11:42:11 PM): haha
trix1087 (11:42:14 PM): hahah
trix1087 (11:42:17 PM): sure it does
me 17 0 3 1 (11:42:27 PM): yeah
trix1087 (11:42:37 PM): have u read the great gatsby?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:42:40 PM): yup
me 17 0 3 1 (11:42:43 PM): thatz one dope ass book too
trix1087 (11:42:44 PM): im not really understanding it quite well
trix1087 (11:42:51 PM): im only in the beginning
me 17 0 3 1 (11:42:52 PM): thatz an example of good karma well for my interpretation
me 17 0 3 1 (11:42:53 PM): ohhhhhhhh
me 17 0 3 1 (11:42:57 PM): well u have to read the whole book to figure it out
me 17 0 3 1 (11:43:02 PM): itz really quite confusing at first
me 17 0 3 1 (11:43:09 PM): but the more u read the more u'll komprehend
trix1087 (11:43:13 PM): ohhh i see yea....
trix1087 (11:43:32 PM): u believe in reincarnation?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:43:38 PM): to an xtent
me 17 0 3 1 (11:43:40 PM): but not fully
trix1087 (11:43:45 PM): how so?
trix1087 (11:43:47 PM): not fully?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:44:18 PM): well when things okur to u through life some peopel have this strong feeling that they've gone through it already..like a deja vu kind of thing u know
trix1087 (11:44:30 PM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:44:31 PM): or when people dream they dream certain things that kan't b xplain..or how some people dream the future
trix1087 (11:44:38 PM): yeah
trix1087 (11:44:53 PM): how is that relavent?
trix1087 (11:44:59 PM): to reincarnation...
me 17 0 3 1 (11:45:03 PM): well
me 17 0 3 1 (11:45:05 PM): the mind is strange
me 17 0 3 1 (11:45:15 PM): and itz really weird that it kan sometimes..but not all that often predikt things
trix1087 (11:45:31 PM): mhmmm
me 17 0 3 1 (11:45:34 PM): well mayb not reinkarnation but i guess u kan say there are other parralel universes
me 17 0 3 1 (11:46:11 PM): like other possibilities of what kould happen and subkonsciencely we're all konnected..u and ure other selves in other worlds
trix1087 (11:46:47 PM): ohh i see...i understand now
me 17 0 3 1 (11:46:55 PM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:47:00 PM): thatz the best i kan xplain it right now
me 17 0 3 1 (11:47:11 PM): i really haven't kontemplated on that subject in a while
trix1087 (11:47:12 PM): so basically some things happen without realistic reason
trix1087 (11:47:25 PM): they jsut are...and how we get there or see it...doesnt matter....we just do
me 17 0 3 1 (11:47:34 PM): in way yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:47:44 PM): life is weird young one
me 17 0 3 1 (11:47:49 PM): i don't know if u've realized that now
me 17 0 3 1 (11:47:58 PM): or ure beginning too..but i just thought i'd let u know
trix1087 (11:48:00 PM): hmmm...thank u obe one
trix1087 (11:48:03 PM): is that u spell it?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:48:04 PM): de nada
trix1087 (11:48:04 PM): haha
me 17 0 3 1 (11:48:08 PM): i think hahaha
trix1087 (11:48:16 PM): well if u were to be reincarnated...what would u be?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:48:21 PM): a guitar
trix1087 (11:48:26 PM): that doesnt live
me 17 0 3 1 (11:48:29 PM): it does live
me 17 0 3 1 (11:48:31 PM): through itz musik
me 17 0 3 1 (11:48:34 PM): it kan bring happiness
me 17 0 3 1 (11:48:42 PM): only musicians kan understand
trix1087 (11:48:51 PM): oh wow...i guess so
me 17 0 3 1 (11:48:58 PM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:49:12 PM): kuz all of my guitarz bring me happiness that no one will ever understand
trix1087 (11:49:17 PM): this has been a truly enlightening conversation noel
me 17 0 3 1 (11:49:26 PM): i'm glad it has
trix1087 (11:49:29 PM): haha well most things we are fond of, have that effect
me 17 0 3 1 (11:49:31 PM): i like to open peoples minds
trix1087 (11:49:39 PM): hahah i like to have my mind opened
me 17 0 3 1 (11:49:45 PM): thatz good
me 17 0 3 1 (11:49:47 PM): don't klose it
trix1087 (11:49:53 PM): so what do u think is wrong with the world
me 17 0 3 1 (11:49:53 PM): kuz when u try to open it it'll really hurt
me 17 0 3 1 (11:49:59 PM): honestly?
trix1087 (11:49:59 PM): hahah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:50:01 PM): a lot
trix1087 (11:50:02 PM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:50:05 PM): well first off
me 17 0 3 1 (11:50:22 PM): i believe people are really good..and they have the utilities to do good and make good choices
trix1087 (11:50:31 PM): likewise
me 17 0 3 1 (11:50:36 PM): so i think itz a miskonception when people say that we're all f*cked up and stuff
trix1087 (11:50:36 PM): however...
trix1087 (11:50:47 PM): so the actions are fucked up
me 17 0 3 1 (11:50:48 PM): itz jus that people r konfused of the truth
me 17 0 3 1 (11:50:57 PM): yeah aktions but not always the people unless they have no feelings
me 17 0 3 1 (11:51:06 PM): ig uess itz a benifit and a kurse to have feelings
me 17 0 3 1 (11:51:20 PM): kuz the only way to xperience true happiness is to xpereicne true heart ache and sadness
me 17 0 3 1 (11:51:28 PM): the paradox of the world
me 17 0 3 1 (11:51:37 PM): and another thing is that people give up to easily
trix1087 (11:51:55 PM): but what if they are just being realistic
me 17 0 3 1 (11:51:58 PM): not that many people want to help the people around them..they're all out there for themselves...quite selfish in my opinion
trix1087 (11:52:06 PM): they kno their measures
me 17 0 3 1 (11:52:11 PM): well they're only being realistik through their eyes
me 17 0 3 1 (11:52:17 PM): they ahve to look at the overall pikture
trix1087 (11:52:25 PM): oh...that takes a lot from some people
me 17 0 3 1 (11:52:32 PM): u kan't look at life through a kalidaskope..u have to have a myopic vision
me 17 0 3 1 (11:52:36 PM): i know thatz y u kan't give up
me 17 0 3 1 (11:52:38 PM): u must always try
trix1087 (11:52:53 PM): so ur a optimist arent ya?
trix1087 (11:53:12 PM): sometimes i associate realists with pessimists
me 17 0 3 1 (11:53:21 PM): u kan never give up..kuz giving up is the worse things u kan do...especially giving up on ureself...thatz basikally suicide in my opinion...ure a worthless f*ck if u give up on ureself
me 17 0 3 1 (11:53:23 PM): well it depends
me 17 0 3 1 (11:53:25 PM): it kan and it kan't
me 17 0 3 1 (11:53:42 PM): Sushi is a realist but he's not necessarily a pessimistik kind of person
trix1087 (11:53:49 PM): yeah true
trix1087 (11:53:55 PM): very true
me 17 0 3 1 (11:53:56 PM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:54:02 PM): and another thing
trix1087 (11:54:05 PM): i htink people need more trust
me 17 0 3 1 (11:54:11 PM): that too
me 17 0 3 1 (11:54:21 PM): not only in others but most importantly it starts inside w/ oneself
trix1087 (11:54:28 PM): i think we get scared to easily...yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:54:33 PM): kuz i believe the only true way to help other people is to first help ureself
trix1087 (11:54:35 PM): well we are our own source
me 17 0 3 1 (11:54:40 PM): yeah xactly
trix1087 (11:54:45 PM): yeah...
trix1087 (11:54:53 PM): what do u think of war?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:55:07 PM): kuz when u got ure mind skrewed on straight and ure heart pumping good w/ love and hope u kan't really go wrong
me 17 0 3 1 (11:55:13 PM): to me i have mixed feelings
me 17 0 3 1 (11:55:28 PM): kuz i used to believe that force was the only way but i've kome to realize that more violence begets more violence
me 17 0 3 1 (11:55:38 PM): we've been on this earth for yearz and yearz..and violence hasn't done much good
me 17 0 3 1 (11:55:47 PM): it jus makes more violence
me 17 0 3 1 (11:56:01 PM): itz like giving into the enemy..to me u shouldn't play the same game they're playing
me 17 0 3 1 (11:56:07 PM): the only way to make them change is to show them another way
me 17 0 3 1 (11:56:18 PM): but others believe that force is needed and THEN u show them the other way
trix1087 (11:56:23 PM): but how many nations would conform to alternative ideas?
me 17 0 3 1 (11:56:33 PM): klose to none
me 17 0 3 1 (11:56:38 PM): but thatz y it starts w/ the individual
me 17 0 3 1 (11:56:56 PM): i don't give into that bull krap that 'i'm one person i kan't do nething' ..one person kan do alot of good
trix1087 (11:57:06 PM): yeah definitely
me 17 0 3 1 (11:57:11 PM): and if a large number of 'one persons' do good then ure not jus one person ne more
trix1087 (11:57:15 PM): but we are constantly overruled by congress
trix1087 (11:57:16 PM): and so forth
me 17 0 3 1 (11:57:44 PM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:57:49 PM): thatz y everyone has to start small
me 17 0 3 1 (11:57:54 PM): big things don't happen outa no where
me 17 0 3 1 (11:57:58 PM): they always start small
trix1087 (11:58:05 PM): yeah...i know what ya mean
me 17 0 3 1 (11:58:05 PM): and gradually it'll bkome bigger
me 17 0 3 1 (11:58:06 PM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (11:58:16 PM): am i making ne sense? kuz if i'm not please tell me when i'm not
trix1087 (11:58:23 PM): u know how people say...i support the troops but i dont support the war
trix1087 (11:58:27 PM): liek the peace movers
trix1087 (11:58:29 PM): ...
me 17 0 3 1 (11:58:32 PM): yeah
trix1087 (11:58:39 PM): well how can u support someone...but not what theya re doing
me 17 0 3 1 (11:58:44 PM): kuz u kan
me 17 0 3 1 (11:58:47 PM): herez an xample
me 17 0 3 1 (11:59:24 PM): u have a good friend whom ur eally kare about but they're not doing something they really want to ..itz kind of force onto them..and i guess they're jus whateverz about it...but u as a good friend must trust them and support them kuz ure a good friend
trix1087 (12:00:34 AM): yeah, but in the arm force, u have to enlist..to be pulled out...u know?
me 17 0 3 1 (12:00:42 AM): not really
trix1087 (12:00:44 AM): so they arent whatevers about it
me 17 0 3 1 (12:00:49 AM): every man at the age of 18 must inlist
trix1087 (12:00:50 AM): not really? how so?
trix1087 (12:00:54 AM): msut?!
trix1087 (12:00:57 AM): really?
me 17 0 3 1 (12:01:01 AM): if not then if they katch u then u have to pay afine
me 17 0 3 1 (12:01:06 AM): yeah u have to register w/ THEM
me 17 0 3 1 (12:01:20 AM): u have to pick which armed force u'd b more interested into just in kase of an 'emergency'
trix1087 (12:01:21 AM): thats goes against civil rights
me 17 0 3 1 (12:01:22 AM): and yada yada
me 17 0 3 1 (12:01:29 AM): eggsaktly
me 17 0 3 1 (12:01:36 AM): but they don't change it tho
trix1087 (12:01:42 AM): hmm weird...wasnt in optional one point or another
me 17 0 3 1 (12:01:46 AM): kuz thatz what they had to do when they wree young so they put it unto us
me 17 0 3 1 (12:01:57 AM): well u don't really have to 'inlist' but u have to register
trix1087 (12:01:58 AM): are u sure? im gonna research
me 17 0 3 1 (12:02:05 AM): but once u register they have u in their hand
trix1087 (12:02:15 AM): ohhh i see
me 17 0 3 1 (12:02:15 AM): u kan't really run away
trix1087 (12:02:20 AM): man well what if ur a girl
me 17 0 3 1 (12:02:20 AM): kuz the government is watching
trix1087 (12:02:23 AM): is it different
me 17 0 3 1 (12:02:23 AM): well ure lucky hahaha
me 17 0 3 1 (12:02:26 AM): yeah
me 17 0 3 1 (12:02:37 AM): usually only males turning 18 are required to register
me 17 0 3 1 (12:02:50 AM): i don't know what the deal is w/ females
trix1087 (12:02:53 AM): oh kool
trix1087 (12:02:53 AM): hah
trix1087 (12:03:08 AM): well im glad to have had this convo with ya!
me 17 0 3 1 (12:03:14 AM): yo tambien
trix1087 (12:03:22 AM): i learned somthing here
me 17 0 3 1 (12:03:25 AM): thatz good
me 17 0 3 1 (12:03:29 AM): people should learn something new everyday
trix1087 (12:03:29 AM): okay...thanks obe one
trix1087 (12:03:31 AM): haha
trix1087 (12:03:34 AM): yeah i agree
me 17 0 3 1 (12:03:36 AM): yeah
trix1087 (12:03:39 AM): bye now! take care!
me 17 0 3 1 (12:03:42 AM): either learn something or realize something
me 17 0 3 1 (12:03:44 AM): night
posted by Leon at 11:57 PM