i promised an end of the summer blog and i guess here it is....yeah i know my latest blogz haven't been the konventional ....'novel type' blogz...u know w/ me rambling on and on and on and on some more..the ones that people really hated to read...but it seemed that alota people would look at my blog when i used to write soooo much but now well thru the korse of summer people didn't really look at it soo much ...and it does kinda suck i guess kuz during the summer i didn't always blog novels u know...and since skool is starting again i might start to blog novels once more...soooo suckx for u guyz who didn't take advantage of my short blogz hehehe...yeah i'm gonna try my best to rekapture this yearz summer thru one blog..i know even if i had a week to blog about it i'd proally miss alotta stuff that went on...so i guess if u really really really really really really wanna know about my summer ure jus gonna have to go thru my archives or something...or an ez way...jus ask me....if u have time i'll tell u...if u dont' then well....don't ask haha...itz a really really long story ....trust me on that one...like seriously....hmmm....oh yeah i guess i'll start of w/ a title of this summer...i kame up w/ it like uhh a week or two ago i was jus thinking of songnames and stuff and i kame up w/ this one...N.K.S.D yeah....i know most of u well...proally all of u won't b able to get it...but itz kool...but if u do..then well....*high/low five* to u hehe..yeah oh yeah another thing...i guess thruought this blog i might even xplain some of the inside jokes and the sayinz that have bekome ever soo previlent in my blogz...and other peoples as well...hmm where to begin...well i guess u kan say the origins to many if not most of these sayinz...is a good frind of mine Sushi...otherwize known as Batma17....yeah...people ask me y don't i kall him Batma17..and well itz kuz i dunno i've been kallin' him Sushi since frosh year of HS and i'm jus really used to it...and i dunno...he didn't really wear alota batman stuff during skool...so the whole Batma17 vibe didn't affect me as much as all of u peoples out there who've grown to know him through the years of HS and things of that sort u know...or how he sayz 'ya know?" or "dag yo" hahaha and various other sayingz....hmmmyeah..itz kinda phunny tho when i think about it...like i was really kool w/ Sushi during Frosh year....kuz i had two klasses w/ him..t.hen soph and junior year i really didn't see him or talk to him that much..then seinor year happend...and i had two klasses w/ him again hahaha..yeah thatz when we started bkomin' kool and stuff....hmmmyeah....and the kool thing is that Susih's the first bosco brave i met...yeah it was in line for books..i remember it was all phreakin' early that one morning...damn...yeah ...and some guy was like 'u should make some new friends here in this line kuz the friends u make now might help u out in the future and might have the hook ups u know what i'm saying?" and yeah i guess what he said was kinda true...strange.....the sayingz and happenings of my past kontinue to b relevant in my future and present.....hmmm....entiresting, [say aloud]....and some may wonder where that whole thing starts..the 'entiresting, very' well once again it starts w/ Sushi and at first he was the only guy who would say it but it didn't make sense if he said the 'very 'part after saying the 'entiresting' part ya know?....so during physics klass he xplained to me what the word 'entiresting' means and i liked it...i thought it was katchy...i knew it would katch on..sooner or later....i didn't think the summer there after sooner..but yeah...well newayz....yeah so i was teh first person to sukame as he or now we would say....yeah so hmm Sushi also xplained to me how to do the DIABOLACAL *SCHEME **CLENCH FIST IN THE AIR thing...yeah ...in physics klass it was Sushi and me who would do it..and Fuzzy would do it too..kuz he's kool like that..but it really never kaught on w/ him...but i did sukame to that as well...and there are other kountless sayingz that r now apart of my strange vokabulary...such as umm "tis es tis es" and umm "ninja what?!" hahaha and other ones that xkape me right now....yeah.....i really realyl didn't htnk that i'd b chillin' w/ Sushi alot this summer......i'm jus bening honest u know...it really didn't kross my mind..i jus tol dmyself..."hmm mayb i'll hang w/ 'em once a while so he kan show me that video stuff or whateverz" thatz about it... but boy was i wrong about that one hehehe..but itz kool u know....he's a kool kat....u guyz should get to know him...and itz true itz true..what it sayz on his profile about how he doesn't blog ne more kuz other people blog for him..kuz we do....hahaha..u jus have to find out which blogz r the ones...and sadly but yeah...even xanga about him either....hahahahahahahaha.....i'm not forgetting the whole blogger vs. xanga thing haha..itz soo phunny hahaha....u know blogger is better....i've already gotten EX xanga peopoel to konfirm ...so neener neener neeeener hahahahaha...hmm...yeah this summer was phun......i mean the kool thing about it ...it like kontinued from the end of Senior year u know...well yeah was it last night?..or this morning? haha yeah i was talkin' to pD about it and i kouldn't find the right word but good thing she always knows what i'm talking about so she told me "transition" yeah....this years summer was a dope transition from HS life to Kollege life u kould say ....like it was a really really phun summer...i mean....i told myself during senior year..that i'm not gonna get no job during summer kuz i jus wanna chill...have phun...play guitar..and hang w/ friends...and i did all of that..even tho i know at the begginning of the summer and time through out i did komplain a lot..but hey!..i.'m only human u know...but yeah i really really had phun this summer....i don't have enough words or space in this blogger to deskribe it all hahaha..but yeah i really had phun...it was dope...and i would like to thank all of the people who were involved...not jus the phun times....not jus the kool times..not jus the boring times...not jus the whateverz times...but even the bad times too....kuz i've finally realized and accepted that u kan't have the bad w/out the good..it jus doesn't work that way..i always tried to tell myself and prove people wrong and say u kould have one w/ out the other...but well..this summer i was proven wrong....boy was i proven wrong..haha..kome to think of it i was konstantly proven wrong this summer....it was kool tho...it really is....i've grown alot as a person....i've seen things that i didn't think xisted in myself..and w/in those around me...i've had alot of deep internal reflektion this summer....i mean i usually do...but this summer i wasn't alone....awwww mushy shiznets hehehe...yeah but seriuosly i wasn't alone...i don't think i was ever alone this summer....even when i was 'alone' i knew tha ti wasn't..kuz "You're not Alone..alonnnee " hahaha Home Grown song..hmmm yeah...itz kool..hmm....yeah i got introuble this summer...a good number of times.....and NOOOOOOOOO itz not all of ure fault!!!..U KNOW WHO I'M TALKING ABOUT hehehe....seriously i know i know ikknow what u say when i say that and u know what i'm gonna say after saying it so therez no use in going through that whole konversation again...hehehe....yeah..we know what we're going to say hehe..kuz we're kool like that..hehe...yeah but seirously i knew i was gonna get introuble....it was bound to happen...and it happend like the week right after i graduated hehehe..but ok...look at it this way..if i didn't get in trouble..u wouldn't of had a reason to visit me the following week?...did u ever think of it that way?...hmMMMMMmmmm....not only once that week..but twice hehehe...yeah....and many many times after that....seee so it was kool that i did get introuble that one time....kuz despite the fakt of ggetting introuble that event opened doors for other things to happenn...well...mostly good..and i guess even the bad....and please don't dwell on the bad....thatz aktually a 311 song...Don't Dwell.......'write that down' hehehe...or 'dl that song' hahaha...yeah......itz kool....kome on...say it w/ me ...."itz kool"...hehe...see that wasn't soo bad....yeah and i'm guessing i opened up the thoughts channel for u to think of the bad thatz happen w/ u know u getting me in trouble and u always saying ure a bad influence on me but ure not.....necesarrily all together a bad influence...u were an influence that was needed none the less.....hmm..look at it this way...well i'm purdy shure i've already told u this but.....EVERYTHING that happend....HAD to have happend....so THIS would happen...and WE would happen..i know itz gonna take alot out of u to believe it....and to accept it....but please try....rememeber i always believed that things happen for a reason and theres always a reason behind things..even the ones that don't have a reason kuz the reason is that it doesn't have a reason so that even has a reason....so yeah....hmmm...this summer well...it was a phun test..i guess.....it proved certain aspects of my thought wrong...and my judgements about things and certain types of people...and things that i always thought was impossible....i guess thatz y i believe in the impossible..kuz i've seen the impossible happen.....hmmm ...think about that one..........finished?....i know ure not but i'll move on i guess...yeah....i'm glad this summer was this summer....it was the best summer i've had so far.....and iknow Sushi's like 'well mayb itz the best summer kuz RIGHT now u think it is but later on in life u might think otherwize when u kommpare it to other ones"' yes i know i knonw...but overall this has been one of theb est summers i've ever had.....it has......really.....honestly......soo much stuff happend.....good and bad.....but it happend ya know....it had to.....i'm glad it did....i mean....i dunno if ikan honestly say i'm glad that even the bad stuff happend...but i've accepted the bad w/ the good kuz u kant' take one w/out the other......i m ean..i told myself i'm not giving up....and i'm in it for the long ride...no matter how hard it takes..or how beaten down i get....or hurt i may bkome....i'm still here and i aint goin no where......hmmmm phunny how my blogger title still remainds relevant to the things that have happend....and i thought that i would change the title after a week and have a new title each week....but i guess not....hmmm..i used to think alota things weren't possible...but now they are.....hmmm ...yeah...the are...u jus gotta believe in ureself.....i guess thatz one of the things i learned this summer....sides staying true to who u really are.....don't ever b someone jus kuz someone else tells u to....b ureself...an dif people don't like that then skrew it......who kares.....i know for some thatz hard...but sometimes u jus gotta say phreak it.....yeah....yeah....all the stuff thatz happend has given me more strength and kourage to move on w/ life.....i knew something big had to happen in order for me to believe in myself........yeah.....hmmmm...ok i guess i'll switch gears now....yeah kollege..i'm starting tomorrow...yeah...in like around 12 hours or so from now..itz a really skarry though ti guess...well for most people..but i'm not really all that skarred..i mmean i know what i gotta do to make shure i graduate...i know that..i. know where i have to go....i know that....i know i kan't b lazy....*cough u too *cough...hahaha...but i dunno....ok i'll jus say it straight out.....u know in them tv shows right...like i dunno lemmethink kof a good xample i guess..blah i kan't haha..ok i'll jus deskribe it..u know in them shows when they graduate outa highskool uknow..they have a bomb ass summer and yada yada...then theend komes...and some people bkome sad that the fakt that some people willmove away u know....yeah...like i guess when a kouple goes apart...or when best friends go their own ways u know?...u know what i'm getting at right?...i hope u guyz r....well umm....yeah i always thought that was really really stupid...i mean...i used to go 'man thatz BS that only happends on tv.....people don't bkome that klose and like don't wanna leave or whateverz..u know...i mean ish don't happen in reall life....and that aint ever gonna happen to me....so itz not real" yeah..well thatz what i USED to think.....yeah....so umm i realy don't think that way ne more....yeah it does happen..u. know y?....kuz itz happening to me.....i guess for the people in the know...they proally know whatz going on....but i'll jus b as general and direkt for the people who dont' know....well i don't have no gurl or nething so itz not that....but yeah...i do have a best friend....and first of let me say another side note....when growing up i thought the phraze 'best friend' was sooooo stupid....i mean yeah i had a child hood one...but it was the usual story...lived in my neighborhood...played video games...did stupid stuff..yada yada...then after 5th grade he moved away to another city and skool....i changed...he really didnt' change...we're not really kool nemore...so after that i thought it was stupid to have aone in the first place to b dependent on one..u know...u don't need a best friend...and i used to say i didn't need ne friends...but yeah i always thought it wasn't possible for two peopel to b sookool uknow..like they like to do the samethings...and like the same musik....chill w/ the same friends...go out and do stupid stuff...chill indoors and vedge out...talk about nonsense and serious stuff...laugh and kry yada yada....someone who knows u as well as u do....and someone who knows u well enough to finish ure sentences...or like know what ure talking about even b4 u kan finish ure question or ure sentence or thought or whateverz...i always thought it was impossible....but i was proven wrong....yeah...all that stuff's kome true....and i thought it kould never ..i mean NEVER kome true for me....kuz no one understood me....peopel tried...no one succeded so i always thought that no one ever will figure me out...but...i was wrong..yeah iw as wrong..hehe..yup yup wrong in deed..but i'm glad i'm wrong....itz kool havin' a best friend...it really is..i mean therez draw backx but i'll get to that laterz....so ne way as i was saying...yeah i have a best friend..and she's moving away to her dorm rooms in about a month or so i think...yeah about a month ....and i'm staying here in the good 'ol LBC..u know kuz i gotsta stay here..kuz erebodies all movin' and ish and someone gotsta stay back to welcome people back u know...and yeah....thatz y i didnt' think it would matter if i stayed back or if i didn't dorm or if i didn't go newhere all far or somewhat far enough that i'd have to dorm kuz that faktor of missing aperson wouldn't affekt me...but when i think about it....it is affekting me...and it hasn't even happend yet....yeah i dunno....i never thought i'd have to deal w/ this u know....mayb thatz y i never really gave much though to it...and now i have to u know..and i guess itz kinda hard i suppose....well not suppose..i know itz hard hahaha...dang....dang dang didly dog gone dang...blah....i dunno...i guess u kould say i'm skarred i guess....skarred of different...i know i know i always said different is good...but i dunno...about this i mean...i never gave much thought into this kind of different...and ig uess it kinda skares me now kind of...well not kind of...it does...i mean boy....u get akustomed to always havin' some one there u know...the person who has almost all ure answers and even the ones that that person doesn't have that person still helps u realize them...and that person isn't jus any ordinary person...the person's really special to me...i guess words won't really give much justice to what i jus said but jus believe me when i say it.....sigh........i guess i'm skarred of the change that mighthappen....yeah i know i always say 'change is good..and w/no change...itz boring...' and yada yada' yeah i know but still....i dunno....i don't know if i kan handle this change...i'm shure i proally will..and mayb right now i'm jus overly thinking about it u know...but it kinda bugs ..well i shouldn't use the word 'bug' but it jus i dunno...itz like a sad kinda feeling i guess.......i mean i like how things r now...i mean i know apart of me wants more but i know thatz not whatz needed....i'm trying really hard to accept that and i think i have...but i like how things r.....i don't know what will happen.....mayb thatz what bugs...kuz i kan't read this future....there hasn't been a past okurance in my life to give me a gateway into seeing what will happen w/ this situation...ihaven't read nething in ne book thatkan help me out....i don't really know ne one else in this kind of predikament who kan give me some sort of wisdom or advice or komforting words or whatzso ever....i don't know what to do i guess i jus i dunno..........................................i guess i'm jus gonna have to see it thru....itz all i kan really do right now..jus live life.....i know that u don't want me to stop everything jus for this even tho i may tell u that i will if u ever want me to or if u ever needme too...and iknow that u don't want me to b blinded or nething and yeah....but i jus don't know......ikan only hope for things to change for the best.....i really hope they do.....and well umm....when i think about it...all thatz happen to us so far has brought us kloser to one another....it really hasn't pushed us away...it jus kinda makes the puzzle peices fit even better...like u try to flip it upside down and it jus doesn't fall apart that easily u know...itz stronger....a lot stronger then it was when it started....sigh.....i think i kan get through this.......and iknow u'll tell me and u have told me that i will.....but i guess what i'm kinda even more woried about is u.....and i nkow u always ask me y i worry about u soo much...itz kus i do...and u know why...and yeah...but if u ever need me tell me...and i'll b there...it may take a kouple sekonds...30 min....akouple hours....but i'll b there when u need me.....hmmmm yeah so i guess this has been my last blog of the summer...yeah....i havne't had one of thses in a while...so i hope for those of u who've aktually taken the time and put up w/ the strain of reading this post i kommend u and i thank u.....i don't ask for komments......i jus ask people to read......hmmmm.....the end isn't a kool thing to say if u think about it...kukz nothing ever ends....hahahaha i know i'm gonna get a good lekture for that one...but seriously tho..i really don't think theres a such thing as an end....therez only new beginnings...i guess itz time for a new beginning...but i'm not forgetting the important things i've started already....i won't forget..i kan't forget and i dont' want to forget...and plus....like i said...i'm not givin' up...not jus w/ that..but w/ everything....i jus have something new to not give up on hehe.....wish me luck folks....kollege here i kome


*an old konversation i just remembered
pD: yeah i always saw u as a person i would want to stay kool w/ through out kollege...u know kuz like after we graduate i pikture us jus chillin' playing our guitarz
Pd: yeah i know huh?...dang ure thinking that too?!? i thought i was the only one thinking that



more than hi =)
posted by Leon at 7:53 PM