hmm ok here's ure post loyal readers haha....wait a min....i don't really have ne loyal readers no one really blogz so no one realy reads......oh yeah b4 i begin i would like to take a min. to acknowledge a very important date that passed...hehe....yeah 'esterday was Annie's burfday...so i would like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANNIE!!!...yeah if u didn't greet her a happy birthday go do it now!..right now!!...then kome back and finish reading this...yeah...Annie's a really good friend so thatz the least u kan do for her..and if u don't have ne money or u didn't get her a present then jus make her laugh...and that should do...yeah..kuz laughter is the best medicine..and u know what else is kool about it..is that itz freee...yay! free!....okie dokie....onto today...umm ok so right now i'm in this lil kafe thingi at my skool library thingi..kuz i jus took a test in my prekal klass....i think i did alright...i surprizingly knew what to do w/ most of the problemoz...there was only one problemo that i didn' tknow what to do...yeah....but i winged it so hopefully i got partial kredit...yeah....i finished all early too....i was sitting there thinking 'damn i don't wanna leave now...what the hell am i gonna do for 3 hours'....yeah kuz i don't have an english klass today...the teacher said she's not gonna b in so don't even kome...and yeah and now itz like 939...and my nex klass is at like 1130...so yup i got like time to kill...yeah so i guess right now i'lll jus blog..and read up on blogz and xangaz and stuff..then may bi'll do some studying...then mayb i'll head over to the kafetiria/food kourt thingi and get some food...yeah..foooood...goood..yummy...hehe...oh yeah u know whatz dope about this kafe room..therez musik playing..itz break beats...yeah if Eddyboy were here he'd proally wanna bust or something...yeah...entiresting[say aloud] musik choice for a lil internet kafe thingi....yeah hmmmm...what was i gonna say..damn i forgot already...how gay...stupid brain....oh yeah...hmm i was thinking of ditching that one klass i have at 1130...i dunno if i should tho...kuz like i really have nothing to do....i mean i kould go drive places but people have skool...and i don't know how to get to irvine so i don't think i would find my way there safely hahahaha.......and plus i have to wait till Neil gets home before i kan leave...kuz he's being all gay and he's like 'nooo what if i press the wrong kode for the house alarm and the police kome and blah blah blah' yeah and itz an ez kode too..damn...oh well...yeah and i dunno i gotta plan things right but i dunno stuf kan happen in a sekond so blah whateverz...some day i'll visit pD in here kollege pad hahaa...she kan say she has a kollege pad now....oh yeah and i should visit Carolyn when i got there too...yeah...i wanna check out her pad also...yeah Aaron kame by my pad last night and ate his dinner there and he was all tellin' me that he told Carolyn to save him a shelf in her room so he kould leave some klothes and a sleeping bag and stuff...so if he doesn't feel like driving all the way back to the good 'ol LBC he kan jus krash over there....i was thinking 'hmmm smart' ..mayb i should do that....hMmmmMmm...we'll see..one day at a time...yeah...what else did i wanna talk about...hmm...kollege is phun so far..i've been prokrastinatin' like krazy tho..well not like 'krazy' haha..but lets jus say i don't do stuf on the day that itz assigned..like i told myself i'd do..but hey...the work i've done is alright haha...yeah my last quizez for pre kal were eithe rpassing or above passing so itz not like i'm failing ne thing or nething...yeah i jus gotta get my ish in order...yeah.....and oh yeah i got back my first kollege paper haha...yeah for my english klass..i got an A-....booyah! hahaha...purdy good since i wrote the paper the ngiht b4 it was due haha.....yeah i'm doin' alright in this kollege environment thingi...yeah..we'll see..i jus gotta start networking musicians and stuff..yeah i still think about that everyday..performing..and how i'm gonna perform..and my timeline on when i need to b done w/ certain goals and stuf.f..like i need to have at least 3 to mayb 5 songs by winter vaka...then i really really need to have a demo by the end of the nex sem..so nex summer i kan jus pass 'em out to strangers and to peopels and to everyone and stuff....yeah when is ee people on the street ima jus give 'em a demo....i got it all planned out u see....kuz i know all of my kool friends and my klose ones r in support of me so yeah they should listen and hear my demo out...and if they really like it then they kan hand it to their friends or something and then their friends will listen to it...and if they like it enough mayb they'll put it on their komputer...or even burn it and give someone else akopy...so yeahit should spread that way...and i have a small but good number of kuzzinz who know people who know people u know...and i think i know enough people know to start a really small phan base...but yeah..we'll see we'll see..i jus gotta keep on playing...singing..writing..performing..whatever it is..i kan't stop doing it....yeah...it feels good to know that people say 'man ure krazy..but for some strange reason i have faith in u..good luck' hahaha yeah...i dunno...the only person who kan stop me is me...and i dont' think i'd do that....yeah...hmmmm..oh yeah what else is today...oh yeah.....=/......sigh....itz my Lola's one year death anniversary.... yeah damn itz already been a phreakin' year since she passed away...yeah...i ummmm...i ummm...hmm...i did alright...yeah...i did my best and yeah i kept my promise..well i think i made her a promise...yeah graduating w/ honors..well jus graduating period yeah....and ummm yeah..itz been krazy...yeah i duno alota stuff changed after she passed away..i mean i dunno family stuff..friends stuff..and stuff jus in general u know...yeah.... ihad a feeling my senior year in highskool would b full of surprizes..and it shure has...and i dunno..i remmber when i didnt' wanna go on and i jus wanted to sit and b blah and sulk in sadness and lsiten to my old skool pissed off MetallicA kuz blah u know...ure Lola died.. uknow...the same person who took kare of u...changed ure diapers...fed u ..kooked for u....told u phunny jokes and stuff...made u happy...always nagged at u....jus sat there...listened to u....y eah even like towards here later years when she really didnt' talk much and she's jus look at me...it was a weird but good feeling..yeah i remember liek after church i'dwe'd go over there to visit her..yeah sundayz were usually family dayz..and of kourse she's family so we'd visit there after going out and stuff..and i'd jus grab John's guitar and i'd start playing..and she's jus lay there on her side watching me..or sitting in her wheel chair jus watch me...once in a while i'd get a smile tho..yeah that was kool....yeah...sigh....i'm doing good...yeah...i remember when i sang at pcn...i think i told myself right b4 i sang the tagalog song 'this one's for u Lola' hehe yeah...i mean lo siento i messed up the words and stuff...but i tried my best..and yeah...thankx for helpnig me pull that off...yeah i dunno i kinda felt she was watching too..i mean phreakin' A praktikally my relatives from my dad's side were all there..well not all of 'em..but alot more than xpected....so yeah it was kool..and yeah....hmm what else do i remember..oh i remember...being really blah around this time last year...the blahness lasted for about a month...damn...i remember ballin' during that one prayer thingi/mass thingi they had w/ the deacon....yeah kuz like ok so as u know i bring my gutiar everywhere..and they all know i've sung funeralz and they phreaki'n axed me to sing for it..b.lah i felt so blah...during that whole tiem i didn't even wanna pick up my guitar...yeah..and they make me sing...and yeah...then after the mass thingi they had the lil euligy..however u spell it...yeah and my mom told me to say something and i'm al lthinking 'wtf..y me...i'm not as old as the older kuzzinz..i dont' have that many stories..and id unno...i don't know...i don't know what to say...and blah" but as usuall whenever the whole family tells me to do something i end up doing it..and yeah...i jsu remembe ri started talking and then i started ballin'..well not balllin' balllin...but tears..then the nose thing and blah..phreakin' A...yeah...and i remember kuzzin Rey Rey said that she walked in when i started talking and that she was all startin' to get teary eyed when i started and she was all liek 'gosh Noel don't kry ure makin' me kry' hahaha i remember that..that made me laugh and smile abit..yeah thankx kuzzin Rey Rey...she always knows what to say jus to get me thinking right haha....well yeah no wonder she's like my 'sister' hmmm....sigh....yeah a whole yearz passed...hmm..mayb i should play the song that i wrote during that period...well mayb nahhh... mayn i dhoulf fine tune it..well hmm yeah..that sounds good..mayb i'll doo that... yeah what else do i remember..ohhh..my friends who helped me out...damn...yeah...like all the peopl who i was really klose to kame..it was kool..like i showed up and Aaron was there i was liek 'damn i didnt' knwo u were gonna kome' and he's liek 'kome one Bro u know i'd kome' and yeah..and one of the dayz Dominic kame along too....and uhh...the choir peoplez kame yeah...oh and Aizirk kame too...haha i was all like 'what she kame?!" when is aw her drive up and park...yeah...she brought flowers too...dang...yeah..i don't think i ever really thanked my friends..well mayb i did...hmm....well mayb i should again...yeah...thankx guyz...u really help me pull through.....yeah....so i guess another year is beginning....i wonder how much more will happen in a yearz time from now..i mean i think about how much stuff went down since last year...itz been A LOT..alota good...funn...phunny..and alota bad..sad..and blah...but hey u gotta have one to get the other...yeah...and hmm what else..oh yeah ..i think chapter three of this summer is koming to an end..yup....this friday will proally be the last tid bits of that chapter....yeah itz been a strange chapter i guess..i mean itz kool..and not kool..but i dunno i'm kool w/ it i guess..yeah i am...kuz i kan't really edit it out u know..after chapter one..and two happend and stuff... yeah it would b kool if the happiness of chapter one were to jus kary out for the whole book but i know that aint gonna happen u know...so yeah u gotta have ups and downs in a story...and yeah....i'm alright now....jus gotta take things a day at a time...well i hope i'm ready for whateverz gonna happen from now and a yearz time...we'll see...we'll see..jus kan't forget that if i really want things to happen i'm gonna have to make them happen but at the same time i'm not always in kontrol and w/ certain things in life u jus gotta let them happen....hmm....i guess there aint no turning back now...juz gotta keep on treading and walking and playing and singing and fighting and laughing and krying and evertything else....hmmm.....soo Annie's debut on friday...kan't wait haha...i still need to memorize the lyrics! hahaha...but i think ikan pull it off..yeah i will..hopefully...*fingers krossed*....yeah....and i haven't danced in a while...so yeah...we'll see we'lll see... so i guess this is long enough for u all....see i told u i'd go back to 'novel' posting..u all shoulda read my short ones while u got ure chance...and well now...ure chance is up...hahahahahahaha soo bring on the eye strain!! muwahahaha*evil laughter hahaha......but unever nkow..i might post up a poem if i feel like it..we'll see..we'll see...hmmm....yup...thatz good enough....so how's that for a post?
posted by Leon at 10:08 AM