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i'm home...in my room...w/ my guitar...well not mines..itz oneof Neils...my labtop....being online...no one online to talk to....point being...i'm kinda bored...well i should b studying..or learning musik theory..or uhh..jus plain playing the guitara..but hmm..instead i think i'll type down my thoughts...*puts guitar aside..*yawn/stretch..alrighty...hmmm where to begin where to begin..well aktually there is no beginning since my thoughts have no official start..they jus keep on going is uppposee....yeah...lets see what did i do today....woke up at like 10 ish...ate pande-ube...drank orange juice....watched tv for a while....then uhh did laundry.well jus the towels..b.ut yeah...then uhhh i forgot the sequence of events...*(side note: Annie signed on..now i have human konversation w/ the aid of technolodgy)...i jus remember..playing drumz..watching tv....folding the laundry...and then my momkame home w/ them fisho fillet..or fillet o fish..whatever u wanna kall dem...yeah..ate that....then i started kleaning..then Jermaine kalled...yeah he said like "hey get ready" and i said " for what" and he said like "to go out" and i said "i don't think i kan go out i gotta klean" and he's like "u gotta klean the whole house?" and i said "uhh yeah" and he said "well hurry up and klean the house so u kan klean ure ballz kuz ure gonna get ure ballz licked today" ...and then i was like 'ure phunny man" and he said "Well jus kall Dominic when ure done" and then he hung up...HAHAHAHAHAHAHA...thatz phunny stuff..i think thatz my favorite quote of this week...yeah..oh yeah...Dominic and Sushi kame over last night..then Dominic was like "whatz Jermaine's number..i think itz..blah blah..oh whatever i'll jus kall it" and he answered..so he kame over..and he told damn good phunny stories...haha...and then Aaron kame by..but left...and then they left..and yeah..ok back to today..so yeah i was thinking "krap i don't wanna klean the whole house....may bi'll jus work on my room.since i realyl need to klean it" but i already got lazy jus thinking of what to klean...so i figured.."i'll jus klean my kloset since my klothes r in the wrong piles and stuff"..yeah so i jus did that..i found more undershirts..and uhh...these dockers shorts haha...they fit too!...haha..they aint all supper baggy or nething..and they're not all that long..but itz kool tho..they're jus whateverz shorts haha.....so i finished that...and i jus kinda jus tidyed up some stuff in the room..and ig ot bored..and passions was over..so i jus started xercizing a lil..yeah...then uhh ellen kame on....tom hanks was on there...phunny guy...then that Micheal Booblay(i kan't spell) was there..he sounds like a kool kat...i should get a kopy of his cd..yeah..then Dr. Phil kame on haha..it was phunny..it was these older women who got plastik surgery kuz they have insekurities about their figure and they have low self estteem..well if u read what i jus put ..it z not so phunny..but i fu think about it...it really is...they're only changing the outside..but not the inside where it kounts..itz like "hello..phreakin' aye..itz phreakin kommon sense..don t'u have ne?!!" yeah...mayb itz jus ezier for some people to see...yeah..then uhhh damn i jus rememberd i dled 2 episodes of Naruto...that should kill like 40 min. of my time.....mayb i'll kontinue this later tonight...if no ones talking or nething...or i dont' end up kalling random people or random kuzzinz..but everyone seems like they're out..and most people don't answer their phones ne way..oh well ..i'll finish this later haha...

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ok i'm back..yeah i didn't think i'd b back so soon..but yeah..i watched eps 73 and 75 of Naruto....and i've been replaying episode 75 over and ovoer and over and again....blah..i kan't dl 76 since their servers r down..blah ohwell..yeah...so whatz happen since i last blogged..uhh...jus talked to Annie..uhh...Sushi kalled...asked if i wanted to go out and stuff..and to get ready but u kant' go out righ tnow ...yeah...so he jus let me go...yeah he's finally learning.....when i kant' go..i kan't go..and thatz the end of it....it took 'em uhh..like uhh not a year...more like half a year or so to learn that haha..oh well...somepeople still haven't learned it....yeah....damn i need to take a piss....ok i'm back..damn i stubbed my toes on those phreakin' dictionaries in the hall way..yeah the light was off...damn..ouch...phreaki'n aye...hmm i jus noticed how my hairs purdy damn long now...and that the fro is purdy big now...it gives me like an illusion thati'mlike 5'7 or so..yeah...itz time i think i should get a Konoha head protektor...my hairs long enough...but uhh i think i should go out soon..since my hairs long...hahaha..and jus fro it out to see peoples reaktions...kuz usually when i go out..well itzlong..but itz jus there...in a rounded shape kind of...itz not like OUT and yeah...damn my phreakin' foot hurts..haha i hit them damn booksp urdy damn hard..oh well...yeah...ihave nothing to do..so i'll jus do some push ups haha and some sit ups.....ok i jus did 25 each..yeah i know it isn't much..but i don't feel like doing ne more..ok..hmm what else is ther to do.....kall kuzzin Rey Rey..nahh she's proally sleeping...kall Ate Aye-uh..nahh proally out somewhere..or sleeping....hmmm....dang i bet by now Dominic and Sushi ..as they read this they're saying to themselves "see if u only woulda jus went out u wouldn't b so bored" yeah oh well whateverz.....dang Spring break is only one week...and itz already almost over..even tho itz already begun..but still..and i got alota stuff to do..klean everything...haha u think it isn't much..but yeah itz a grip....study for my Comp Sci mid term...i kan't bomb this one..i jus kan't get like a 20 something or whateverz again...i alwayz fail the quizes so i need like at least a B to stay in the game..i aktually need an A since i jus bombed the last midterm..=/....i got to research for my english klass...we're doing group projects..we have to do an oral argument..pro and con against something..and i ended up being pro..and our topik is gay marriages and stuff...i still gotta find solid constitutional proof for it and krap..and organize my argument...yeah..then for critikal thinking klass..we saw bowling for Columbine...igotta answer all these questions for it..mayb i'll type up the questions this week and post 'em here..and if u have the answer then u kan b a very nice friend and give them to me hahaha...or u kan jus tell me where u gotthem..and don't say "from the dokumentary" kuz that aint gonna help me hahaha....and for theater..i jus gotta hope i get kasted into a good scene..even tho i wasn't really feeling ne of 'em..yeah...i'd do a monologue again hahaha....as long as i pick something thatz dope..i think i'd do good on anothermonologue..hmm what else do i need to do ..oh yeah....get my kar fixed tomorrow..so yeah no koche or karro if u wanna say that word...for tomorrow..my dad is gonna work on it w/ his kompadre...our machanik...yeah...and on Sunday..i think i already blogged it..but i gotta go to masskinda alone yeah..no fam fam...they're gonna b at bosco..so i hope my kars fixed by then..kuz i don't wanna drive the van..kuz i kan't park that....yeah.....and then uhh...on march 31st the lbcc summer katalog komes out..so i gotta buy that at 711 and fiuger out what klasses..kall people and axe 'em what teachers..kall 'em again and tell 'em i'm trying to register for those klasses..and send it in the mail..and hope i get 'em....and then i gotta work on some musik..kuz i kan't rekord if i dont' have musik....blah..but i need to learn theory kuz i always end up playing things / sinigng things in the same key.....blah whateverz...and uhhh what else..krap....i gotta figure out krap internally also...gotta put things in order and organize some itemz...and like i dunno jus figure krap out basikally...and yeah..andthen also i guess..try to go out i guess haha...going out really isn't on the top of my to do list..itz kinda something that kould get in the way of finishing things..i mean i'm not gonna say that "going out is pointless" well sometimes it is..but yeah...i dunno...i don'treally have the drive rightnow...yeah i think the times when i wanted to go out....like jus eskape..was so i kan see someone hahaha...yeah i think thatz the truth..or i was jus tired of being under the rock.....yeah...i'm not really tired of being under the rock rightnow....but yeah i remember...like when i was in different phazes...i would work soo hard..jus so ikould get out hahaha...that was like the only priority..was to get out..and to spend some kind of time w/ whomever it was.....somehow i need to konvert that into a diferent form..like forcemyself to do things so i kan get kloser to a bigger goal....blah...and now i realize i'm still not really pushing myself...i'm kinda jus here...in limbo land...blah whateverz..when i get out..i'm not going back....and ima b damn ready too....mayb thatz y i don't really like going out now and jus doing whateverz..kuz a part of me thinks its absolutely pointless...i mean it kan b phun u know i guess..but i dunno..still piontles mayb...kuz itz not what i really want in life..itz not whatz going to make me truely happy...and if u don't know me...i only go for the things i really want.....i dont' really like half aS$ing things..even tho i kinda tend to rush reoprts and papers and stufff..but mostly for personal things i like to go 400% u know...not jus almost a 100 or a lil over a 100 like..uh..120 or whateverz..but i'm not ready to go like a 1000 yet..and i'm not halfway..but when i do try i'm almost half way..so i'm like 400 ish i guess..yeah....when i go out and when i do things inlife..i wanna do damn good..mayb thatz y i also don't wanna work right now..i jus kan't see myself doing whateverz kleverz kinda jobs rightnow...jus for a stupid thing like money...yeah dont' get me started on that subject..but yeah....itz not a necessity..and thentherez the argument about...u neeed job xperience and u need to build a good resume and blah blah blah..but to me that really doesn't matter...mayb i'mjus too idealistik but seriuosly tho..for me...i jus wanna do what i want...what makes me happy..is there a krime for that?...am i going to hell for it?!....tellme now...kuz if i am..i think i should know u know...and i might b getting jus a tad bit hostile but i dunno i'm jus kinda tired of being reminded of what societies xpektations and goals and values and krap...i jus wanna do things my way...i've done things my way ever since i've been bored i guess..ever since i figured out that i kan't always follow the krowd and ig otta do sh(*)t on my own.....i've managed u know...in elementary skool back at SAES....the teachers would alwayz jus tell me to do things my way..and to not worry about what other kids say..and if they made phun of me..or they didn't like me..kuz i'm better of doing it myway kuz thatz what works u know...and mayb i dunno..they sensed something in me..that i didn't notice...mayb i was on to something..i didn't know then..i'mt rying to figure it out now..and i hope i figure it out for the futures sake...but then again u never know about the future and krap unless u live the present..yeah iknwo i've heard that many times..believe me i know...but still..i'm the kinda kat who likes to prepare...u know..read up on things...get a good feel for the game....life is a serious business u know....i don't think i kan jus go out there and wing it and hope the best happens....i wanna plan things..itz like a baseball player u know...they don't jus suit up and xpect to hit a home run the first try and like b all good u know...they have to first learn how to play the game and understand it..then they gotta go out and praktice and what not..and mayb if they're lucky int heir whole kareer they'll hit that major home run and the fans will skream and roar and the pikture taking and the media koverage and blah blah blah..but yeah..that was jus a sampole...u kan use ne sport u whish...but yeah..damn...i dunno..i guess i know..but i don't know xactly..but i have a good xample..andi'mjus hoping i don't go astray..but i want to at times..jus to see how the other roads leed u know..and what they look like..and how the drive is on those other ones..but therez no garauntee that therez a way back to my road u know.....or like itz like seeing this border u know....this opposite side..and u wonder whatz on the other side..and ure whole life u've had a purdy big distance away from it u know..u nevereven knew about it..but slowly u kame to learn and hear about it.a.nd u kinda kreep kloser and kloser..until ure kidna right there..and u jus wanna go see whatz on the other side..but u know u kant..and u tell people to stay back...and u try to help people who want to but u know itz wrong but yeah.....damn...if u dont' know what the hell i'm talking about itz kool..but if u do..thenmayb u do..or u think u do but u really don't..or u might b klose...or whateverz....if u really want u kan ask me what i'm really talking about..if not and u think ure konfident enough and u think u know me enough to understand what i'm talking about then so b it....but u never know..unless u really know...yeah...my hands kinda hurt kuz i haven't typed like this in a while...and i didn't even know where i wanted to go w/ this blog..and i jus tried to type as fast as the thoughts in my mind kame up...i'm purdy klose to the speed of my aktual thouoghts..but as i was saying..i guess i'll end it w/ a snipit from the Season 3 opening song of Naruto...itz like the last parts of the song...it made me think..mayb i'll make u think..ormayb this whole blog made ut hink..or mayb u didn't think at all..but now since ure about to read this quote or snipit from the song..ure about tot hink...so here it is...itz on u if u want to think...

Yes, the important things are always the ones with no form
Even if you obtain it or lose it, you do not notice
So turn your sadness into kindness and your uniqueness into strength
It's okay to get lost in the process,
begin to walk.

the end
posted by Leon at 10:08 PM