no one really blogz ne more so ig uess i'll blog in hopes that it will help spark everyones want and need to blog once again..yeah..itz about 156..kant' sleep yet...i dunno y...but yeah...too much thinking and nonthinking..but yeah...lately i've been good..i dunno y i'm xpressing that kuz most of those that kare enough to wonder have asked but for those who haven't i guess i should jus talk about it..but yeah..lately everythings been kool...musiks goin good..klass iskool..i've been out a good amount u know...like i told kuzzin Rey Rey "hmm mayb i'll go out this summer" and she said "YEAH RIGHT?!..thatz what u say every summer and look what happens" but HA! i've been out alot this summer..soo BOOYAAHH hahaha..yeah..itz not like she reads this she has no time to b online..but neway..yea....choir/youth/adult group is been kool..no new members really cept for Vanessa but itz kooll...and yeah..i'm already tired of typing...damn..i've quite rusty at this whole thing...uhmm..band wize...itz been purdy damn dope...had one gig at a reall ligit klub..Blue Cafe..that was dope..all 5 min. of it...and we ALLL played for Joyce's debut..and thatz the first place we all performed haha..kuz usually Neil kan't make it kuz he's too young but damn was that phun..good energy too...so yeah hmmm what else...family is kool also...today i saw Spider man 2..that movie kickx ass..i mean itz not like "Whooa i HAVE TO GO SEE IT"..welll for me and my brother and for Sushi it is..but yeah..i like it...itz a good overall movie...plot wize..character build up..stayed true to the storyline...had twists and turns..u rooted for the characters...u sympathized or empathized w/ them..uhh..the cgi didn't take away from the aktion or movie..it was an overall goo dmovie..and only ONCE did i say to myself "ohh that was inside of a hollywood backlot" kuz usually i'm always like saying stuff like that..but yeah it was good..and yeah everyone should watch it so i kan over analize the whole movie w/ u all..not jus Sushi...but itz ok kuz Sushi knows what he's talking about and if u don't wanna watch it then FINE THEN..so be it hahahaha..yeah...hmm what else..yeah Band's kool..skool's kool..fam fam is kool...yup..and oh u may ask "so how dem ladies b?" uhh good question hahaha....i dunno honestly..like i say..i think i'll jus koncentrate on the fish thatz in front ofmy right now...but too bad it seems like the fish aint paying much attention...*sigh..oh well whateverz...i don't wanna think about it too much..i'd rather think of more positive things....kuz then yeah ima start analizing and over analizing and krap..but yeah...*sigh..i guess thatz all i kan really say about that...umm what else...uhh tonight iw as writing a song..well trying to..i dunno my mind went blank half way when is tarted thinkinga bout other things and what not....but yeah..i like the song that iw as 'writing' in my head during the spider man 2 movie...but yeah...i dunno..damn do i soo get that movie...i hella understand where he's koming from..and like i dunno..it aint ez being asuper hero..itz like a lota self sakrifice..and giving up what u want for the sake of other people..and even at the kost of ur own life u know..i dunno...if i ever had to b a super hero i think i'd proally end up being somewhere alongst the lines of what peter parker has to go thru u know....nerdy guy..ended up w/ kool powers....likes the gurl nex door....blah blah..the whole best friend thing u know..i dunno..i jus was thinking during the movie..but whateverz...so yeah...two weeks till my bday..i'm starting to feel indifferent about it now..like i don't really kare ne more..or i kare less everyday...i mean i still wanna play..don't get me wrong..and i still wanna rock out and get these songs in order and good stuff but i dunno...i dunno...*sigh..whateverz kleverz...u know..all i really do ask of people is to b good friends...i mean i don't really like presents in the first place..and i mean if people kan't b good friends how do u xpect them to do nething else u know..hmm..dwell upon that for a sekond....yeah unless u wanna think about it even more..but yeah...is it really that hard to be a good friend?...well yeah it is but i mean..i dunno...yeah like my deal for my bday..ALL u have to do is spend some good quality phun klean happy time w/ me u know....jus kome over and eat...chill...eat...listen..chat...have good phun..katch up on old times...u know..but i dunno...whtaeverz..itz jus another day that i hope will b better than the rest...yeah if ure really really wondering what i would like this year...and since i already know no one really reads this ne more...i jus wanna a karefree/dramafree/worryfree birthday u know...like when i was a kid..u wake up and ure all "yay" and stuff..ure like "thatz soo kool i get to add the number 1 to my age" and ure all xcited kuz of the kooking of the food..the family phone kalls..i dunno u know all that good stuff..and then u get older and it bkomes a lil jaded for u ..and things rn't "yay" ne more itz like a chore to do..u ahve to do this for this to b right..if u don't do this and then or when it won't go right..blah blah...etc. etc....yeah..i kinda jus wanna have a good time..i want a whole mother phreakin' day when i don't over think..or i don't worry..or i won't b sad jus one bit and have to hide it w/ a smile kuz i really hate doing that...i mean if ure gonna b pissed or sad or what not and not happy then jus phreakin' b pissed and sad and not happy hahaha phreakin' aye..whateverz....i still got two weeks of 18 year old living..b4 i say i'm 19..damn..in ayearz time i'll b worried about turning 20...now THATZ skarry....i jus wanna graduate already....so i kan move onto the phunner things in life....musik..touring..the world....yeah i was looking at Kuya Elmer's piktures from his europe adventures...i was all saying to myself "yeah i need to see all of these places b4 i turn 30..i wanna b young and u know have stuff tot alk about"....and plus therez alota walking involved in alot of these areas u know..and yeah..i. dunno...i honestly don't nkow how i'm gonna pay for my tours..or my travels or nething hahaha..i'm jus livin off of what i have and what i own right now..which isn't much..but is good enough..but yeah...hmmm...*skratches head....*sigh.....things dont' get much ezier when u get older...at least i've known that for a while...i dunno i see these youngins and they're soo full of energy and like they worry about the littlist things..but theres soo much out there they don't know about u know...i dunno...jus makes u worried sometimes...blah whateverz...itz on them u know...everyones gotta find their own way and make their own way in life...and i guess i'm jus trying to do the same..find my own way....yeah....hmm itz summer time i jus remembered....yeah i know what that means...yeah...but oh well...i dont' really mind..i mean it would b nice but ehh..whateverz....*sigh...yeah...i guess i'll jus sing about things...haha yeah...at least i have song material....

...is it really that hard to answer the phone?

...is it really that hard to aktually kall back?

i don't even know y i still try.

postskriptum: remember kids..itz summer time..make the best of it..u won't have that many more summerz later down the road.
posted by Leon at 1:58 AM