Title: I'm Back

I've been back for a bout a week something.it doesn't feel like i'm all here..istlthnkthtnly75prcntfmeshr but the rest is some where roaming Filipinas.....the trip was really hot and really humid everyday..and it was really phun...almost every day was a new adventure..going to somewhere different...or even going to the same mall or SM again...its nice to take vacations and to get away from everything...you really appreciate it when you arrive back to "home"...i guess you know you've had a really good time when you don't want to go back "home"...or mayb when you go "home" and you feel really awkward with all of the things inside your "home"....going online is really boring now...being back in amerika is kinda boring...its the same as i left....despite the personal changes of a few of my good friends..its still the same place...people still work and work and work during the day....and everyone still goes throughh the motions...and you wonder if they're really happy...i guess you kan say that about life everywhere...about societies all around the world...when we went to hongkong for 3 days....on the sekond day whenw e had our group tour and the tour guide was talking about life in hongkong he said that he works more than 8 hours a day...and most of the people in hongkong jus work and work and then they spend the money right away and then they have to work and work.....i think thats when i really got thinking....thinking about life and society...what kind of society is one in which all you look forward to do is another day of labor...and the more i thought about it during my overall vacation the more i kame to question it....are people rreally happy?....and in Filipinas it was more noticeable than anywhere else....malungkot(spelling?) ang mga faces....their faces are all sad....i mean when i saw my family again they were happy and exstatic...and overall all of my family over there was reallly happy about us visiting and koming back home to Pi...but everyone else...the people...all of the people...they seem like they're stuck in their lives....and when i got back to LAX and i started looking around and realizing that our airport is really ugly and it needs a major facelift i realized that well everyone..all people who don't have the opportunity to travel and to see other places on this planet are somewhat "stuck in their lives"...they only know what they know..and nothing more or less...they've never had to experience anything different...challenge themselves culturaly...view their own society from the perspectives of others....hmm..amerikan cultura...hmmm..i dunno..i don't think i view things the same anymore...its quite boring here...no offense to those that love it....but honestly it does seem boring here....it seems that the only thing that keeps me here is family..friends..and musik..other than that there really isn't a reason to just pack up and get lost in the world...it would b nice tho to just pack up and go....mayb oneday i'll try this notion of leaving w/out telling people your actually going....i think i could get away with it....and people will just say "oh thatz jus like him..he's jus looking for something."...and they're right about that...."looking for something"....it seems that ever since i got back i've just been observing things...not really apart of things...it seems that i kan't really fit in as i did before i left.....strange.....it is a strange thing to step out of your norms for about a month and return and try to just live as if you weren't gone...some may take this opportunity and use it in a different light...they might really want to stay in their "home" setting even more since they've been away for quite some time...hmmmm...and less than 24 hours i'll be turning twenty...then the real timer begins...10 years to get out and have phun...most people start this journey in highschool...but personally how far kan you get in highskool..your still in your 'normal' society.....for me i think it really starts now..or well soon....your one chance to get out and search this world for whatever it is your looking for....what better time to do so...when your young you have the energy..and the openmindedness to view different things....hmmm....you know what was one of the most beautiful things i saw while i was gone....it was in the sky....the night we were flying back to maynila from hong kong....i was looking for it the whole plane ride back..but iw as lucky enough to see it....its very much the same from the ground but so much different when your in the sky....well it was just krazy...to see it like that at that height in the sky....the full moon.....hmmmm clouds look better from 37,000 feet in the air....if only we kould go out and touch 'em.....

i'll post pictures from my trip soon.
posted by Leon at 9:35 AM