Title: broken computer fixed return happyhellogoodbyeday

so my computer was broken for a lil over aweeek. did i survive..oh yes i did. instead of sitting on my ass reading random articles about pointless and usefull conversation starter information i stood and practiced guitar for 2 hours every day. today i didn't practice during my usual time kuz i was out of the house to buy the hellogoodbye album...in which i am listening tor ight now..and i really enjoy...it makes me smile.

so my computer has returned and i can confidently walk away from it and unplug my matrix like brain chord thing. its odd now to just sit here and read and stare at the screen. conversating online has become very nonpersonal.

so my computer is working fine for now but we'll see...if you're wondering what i've been up to lately its mostly band related activities...i'm either practicing, promoting, or performing. practicing 2 hrs on guitar by myself and about 1 and a half hr or so w/ the band. promoting at every single show there is..well not everysingle show but a whole lot of 'em these past few weeks. we're making good progress w/ an average of about 5 new myspace friends per show we promote at. performing we are playing 3 gigs this weekend...FPAC BATTLE OF THE BANDS on friday...Sam Ash on saturday and a punk/ska show in Compton this sat night. next week we have an acoustic show next thurs. and possibly another short acoustic set nex sat....not sure yet about that one. but next weekend is THE SHOW...i'm kinda worried still..a bit excited..mostly worried that everything planned willgo thru....and more importantly that people won't show up...i don't kare if everyones talking about the show...its all a worrysome event until the lights are up and we start playing..thatz when the fun begins.

so my computer is running quite fine and well hmmmm everyone was right. i guess i'm stubborn to an extent and i'm just one of those types that must find out things for themselves..even if it hurts..or stings...or burns...speaking of burns don't ever grab something from the microwave right when its finished..esp. when it was running for about 3 min. ouch in deed. but yeah i am the type that must learn first hand. am i heartbroken...not really...its been one of those strange rollercoasters...those on and off things everyone used to tell me about when i was a young teen...a cyclical event that needed to end...hatred...a bit...just enough to fuel my song writing sessions. and enough hatred to know to not go back the way i did. i am starting to realize that there is no middle ground in my life...everything is always an extreme...it has to be all of it or nothing...everything and not something...something and not everything...nothing or all of it....is it a problem? i am not sure...but yeah comparing the past and the present i now realize that all i've experienced are extremes and that somehow i must find a balance...well find..i don't know about find...maybe just look out for...or possibly just wait for?...but why wait...waiting is tiresome and gets kinda boring after a while...so i shall engage instead in this game. hmmmm we shall see we shall see.

so my computer is working and i must get back to learning and writing...i need to make an attempt to write everyday so i can get back to where i was....when i could write a whole song in 10 min. i found an old song that i wrote awhile back..i think two years ago or so.....its pretty good aktually...i'd change maybe a line or two...but i like it....its not a Sun Doominal song...but its a good song nonetheless...i still haven't found the right melody or chordal structre to go w/ the lyrics...but as its standing alone as a work of poetry its really good.

so my computer is on and i'm wondering if i should turn it off...
posted by Leon at 7:48 PM