Title: I'm blogging and i can barely see the fucking screen

so yeah my laptop is fucked up and its going matrix krazy on me right now...i kan't sleep kuz i keep on thinking about the show...ok so i guess i'll say way i have to say even tho i can barely even see the screen...first off i want to thank everyone that made it out tonight...you don't know how much it means to me that you guys came...like seriously it means A LOT that you guys came....but damn thank you guys.....ok now for the opposite side of the coin...i'm kind of dissapoint and kinda pissed well not really pissed but more like "WTF?!"...ok...so even some of my kuzzinz that said that they would go didn't go....i mean we didn't even tell them about the show and they told us that they were going....fuck...a grip of people who said they were going didn't even go...wtf?! thats some bull...i don't know..mayb ei'm kinda pissed right now...and usually well i'm happya fter a show..and i should be happy ...fuck the screen is going krazy...shit...but damn ok...so before when EVERYONE would go to bve honest w/ you all..we fucking sucked....ok...and NOW...we practice like fucking krazy...like i'm telling you krazy!...and like not everyone shows up...and i'm not saying that those that showed up are no bodies ...no i don't mean that at all and you know that i thank you from the bottom to the top of my heart and everything in between....but damn it fucking sucks to know that the one show where you did goood...not everyone was there...but i'll giv eyou this...it was a fucking fun show....and it feels good to bev ona stage again in front of some of your fans..even if it was a smaller then usual amount....but whatever the fuck ever right?....but yeah...damn...i mean for goodness gracious sake we had lights for this show!....we NEVER had lights...shit we didn't even know they HAD LIGHTS?!....but fuck it right?....whateverz....i had fun...those that went had a fun time..and i don't wannna hear any of this bull i'm sorry i kouldn't make it....whateverz.....i mean blah fucking aye..you tell someone wayyy in advance and they still don't show up....people tell you in front of your face numerous times that they'll be there and they don't even go..its like..damn...we honestly have lost faith in A LOT of people..we're v ery very konfused quite honestly...i mean ok..check it out...we planned this show like 2 months ago...AT THE BEGINNING OF THE SUMMMEr!!! ok so the first band that we booked backed out...we were bummed yeah..but we kinda had a feeling it would happen..whateverz..we replaced them like nothing you know kuz everyone wants to play w/ us now...AS OPPOSED TO LAST YEAR! when NO ONE wanted to play w/ us and we had to bug EVERYONEn to phreaking do a show w/ us..b.ut anyhoo..so yeah we replaced the first band and we were like ok kool a band that we really like and we're kool w/ and we know all of 'em and yeah it'll be fun.....and then time goes by and we're like well i wonder if it'll go thru..and then later on it doesn't..and it sucks..but oddly enough fate has always been good to us....and another band needed a a last minute show and they did it like nothing...so ok thats one thing...i know and i've kome to understand and accept this w/ the shows and events we plan...NOTHING EVER GOES TO PLAN...NOTHING....EVER!!!! and thats just the truth and we know that now so we're used to it...but damn....i still can't believe people didn't go..i know i know people went but you know i'm talking about everyone else...blah fucking aye..we practice like krazy...we even promoted like krazy for this show....we spent our whole summer going to all of these shows talking to all these new kids and making new friends and like practically none of 'em went.........people who said "see you sunday" didn't even go....but whateverz...its there lose right?...its like when a chick dumps you and she turns into a bitch...its like...its her loss right?...fuck yeah it is....but thats another subject to dwell on for a nother day....and i kan barely read the skreen so yeah.....fuck...we did goood....whateverz...wepll edit the videos..put the audio track over it and post that shit online and everyone will see what they missed out on. *sigh........usually when i think about leaving its for personal reasons...you know...but now after tnoight it just gave me more of a reason to want to just leave and not come back....it seems that people take you for granted..and not just me apparently..but kollectively as well....i wonder tho..would people even really care if i were to leave...or if we were to leave....whateverz..we'll burn that bridge when we get there.....but damn...we did good....i can't wait to put these audio tracks online..they'rre sooo much better then what we rekorded...and its a better representation of who we are now....damn..and you can even hear the crowd singingalong and doing their parts tooo..fuck we might even have them do trackss for the rekording..damn i wanna rekord already..but fucking money..and the lack of....damn damn dam ndamn damn damn....i dunno anymore..

i don't know if i kan kount on anyone anymore...it seems that they only one i can count on is myself..and after that its just the main Sun Doominal people...which is 4 people....but damn....

if you wan't something done right you gotta do it yourself

and if you want something to happen then you gotta work for it

no time to waste..and i still kan't sleep...fuck it.

fuck it

fuck everyone

its all or nothing.
posted by Leon at 3:47 AM